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The Giants
Something I need to think about and dig deeper on..
Fear, Doubt, and uncertainty aid in filling the mind with insecurity. These are called F.U.D.S. The definition of insecurity is a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving oneself to be unloved, inadequate, or worthless. (Wikipedia)
The Human mind is a powerful organ that theorizes, consumes, and creates with all the information it has been given. Yet when it lacks factual circumstances that may be necessary to make a decision that say would protect the individual from psychological or physical harm it prepares theories or scenarios to fill in the missing pieces to make sense of the FUTURE. The mind is more than capable of blowing out of proportion the F.U.D’s in life to aid in reasons to not participate in the experience in order to protect the “essence” of the individual and to avoid potential pain. Our minds are the creators of the future, the fantasy, and the unknown. We can only make light of the present now and our focus needs to be on the “present” with the right worry about the life to come. (Not saying preparation of future objectives or obligations is not needed because they are.. I am just stating that we do not need to worry about the things that have not happened yet but to believe for the best to come.)
Insecurity= FUDS

What I am trying to say is this…
FUD’s are destructive. The mind of an individual is its greatest ally and axis. You can believe in your heart that you are insecure, unaesthetic, that you may lack the communication skills necessary for companionship or relationship etc… and it eats at you.. tears you down.. destroy’s your confidence.. You become weak, a pushover to those who believe in themselves.. The insecurity drives you into selfishness constantly wondering about yourself and how the moment directly impacts YOU and how it could be there to destroy you. The part where you give becomes more of a constant hording of affirmation because you need the attention for your mind to grasp that you are loved and cared about. You lose the reason to love, hope, dream, and be joyful. Insecurity is as I have said the anti-God of humanity and the more destructive cousin of pride. It is the Giant standing before you.. looming over, pushing you, destroying your ego. These Giants are a false sense of reality and all figments of the imagination as it is the id of the mind.
This is something I deal with and I believe we all deal with. The Giants keep the individual from attaining the surmassed amount of God given potential to do the extraordinary. This potential dwells within the confidence that every person creates within.. yet it is utterly useless when the creature disbelieves in its own ability to succeed. How do we defeat these giants? We prove that to our mind by gaining all the knowledge, wisdom, talent, and skill that we can by action. Then by taking that action and believing it with whole heart and mind. I then believe by knowing that who God created the me as special, powerful, beautifully aesthetic with the highest potential to communicate, charismatic, joyful, confident, intense, and o so willing to succeed. These giants are like the oasis’ of life that we fully believe are there but as we get closer to the moment… they fade away and we see the truth. Then we look back and see how “dumb” we were in believing the voice inside the self that stated: Your not worthy, your normal, She/He doesn’t like you, your not there type, how could they be interested, you won’t live to your potential, I’m uncertain of what they will think of me when I present this idea..
In the end we look back and see it all completely was blown out of proportion and yes it is fine to recognize that and we grow.. But I would rather expose the lies that we feed ourselves to be selfish and narcissistic to follow through with true confidence and love.
These moments bring me hope for growth. These experiences can either be road blocks or road signs. They can hinder me or lead me to my potential.
What I am trying to do is to engage in the power of positive thinking, to believe that I am who God made me, No ones opinion about me matters (I’m stating that a most peoples opinions are not worthy of dwelling on as some may be false to lea you astray) and to be more confident in Christ in me who brings my mind back to truth and reality while steering away from the false fantasy that the mind wants to believe to hold me back from pain. To hold love back for fear of rejection and pain.. Father help me grow deeper in you so that I may love uncontrollably, that I may find your desire out of all the insecurity that I may experience but hurdle over it with all the confidence of Christ in me to reach the power that you have invested inside.
It is this reality that we have to know who we are and it is here where most judge and condemn those who have found themselves for they are insecure about themselves so they inherently judge without knowing the heart of that person. They see the outside and not the in. You have to be aware of the heart of a confident person to make a judgement because many use that confidence to take advantage of those who are willing to be used by it.
Never worry, never lose hope, never give in. Find yourself in truth not the fantasy in the mind.
I have realized that my life is precious. Not a fragile precious but something so powerful, rare, and different. An essence that draws goodness and light. It is Christ in me that this is only possible. I have seen the light and draw strength to see greater. I struggle but I am growing. It is this were I experience life and the hope in Christ to make me better.
I have a glimpse of hope in today.
Colossians 3:1-3
May He that is inside me, all around me, running through me guide me to the truth how he perceives me.. Not how the lies of humanity see me.





